a jaunt to my past gives thrive for my voyage to present

2009-11-25T08:19:00.003+03:00

He's The One

Finally!!! all my life!!
Ngaun ko lang masasabi sa sarili ko...
FINALLY IM HOME!!!
This time I'm sure...
Cgurado na ako sa taong mahal ko ngaun....
Ngaun lang ako nakaramdam ng total happiness...
total contentment....
I'm not into a complicated situation...
I'm done being miserable...

It is nice to feel that you have finally with someone
who you want to spend the rest of your life....
wish me luck guys

2009-04-04T15:34:00.002+03:00

as I've ended one chapter, new chapter has Opened....

i've fell in love and lose again....

masarap sa pkramdam yung meron kang taong mahal at the same time mahal ka din nya...

pero minsan talaga hindi pala sapat ang mahal nyo lang ang isa't isa lalo na kung alam nyong pareho na hindi tama....

nagmahal ako ulit ng taong hindi na naman tama para sa akin...

ewan ko bakit lagi na lang ako sa it's complicated....

naaalala nyo dati di ba meron akong kinuwento hahaha bata pa sya kaya hindi pwd at iba ang religion nya...

ngayon iba naman ang sitwasyon ko ang bilis nho? parang 2 yrs ago lang wala na akong boyfriend

akala ko at sabi ko sa sarili ko sana sa susunod na mamahalin ko sya na talaga....

kasi nakakapagod gusto ko din ng walang iniisip

yung everything is right...

yung kahit na mahirap alam mo naman na anjan sya kaw lang ang pwde nyang mahalin pang habang buhay, di ka nya iiwan at paglalaban ka kaht anong mangyari o sitwasyon man yan...

kaso hindi pa din pala...

nagmahal na naman ako ng taong mali...

kaya ko syang paglaban naman e...

yun ay kung meron nga naman akong dapat ipaglaban at kung may kalaban laban ako...

kaso wala...

wala akong assurance kahit onte...

naglalakad ako sa dilim ng ako lang mag-isa... walang ilaw....

samantalang yung nagyaya sa akin para maglakad lakad iniwan ako...

hindi man lang ako binigyan ng kahit onting ilaw para man lang alam ko dinadaanan ko....

sana kahit pano.. kahit medyo madilim meron pa din ilaw kaht onte lang sana....

but thatz life...

we have to let go and move on....

easy for me to say... pero you have to choose from being miserable or from being happy in your future....

2008-11-15T14:12:00.002+03:00

CoMpaRiSOn BetWeEn FiLipIno and oTher NatIoNaliTiEs whEn It ComEs To LOVE...

Im thinking about something different today...
well it just pops in my mind a while ago...
i want to know the comparison between
How pinoy express their love??? and...
How different nationals express their love???
well i'd already experience the way pinoy show their love...
but of course even same nationalities they have different ways each, but..
also one thing in common... i will give the answer later...
i want to observe them...
i want to see how they express their feelings...
i want to know how they court or said i love you...
i want to feel the sincerity or not in their relationship...
well its kinda hard because my feelings is the one i have to sacrifice...
but i would not know the answer unless i havent tried...
surveys are good, or interviews, but isn't it more exciting for a self realization...
i have an experiment until december...
well wish me luck and keep you posted i hope this would work...

2008-05-09T19:04:00.003+03:00

Just A SnEAk

I have loads of things on my mind that i want to write
yun lang tinatamad ako wahahaha!!
im gettin ready for my vacation sa pilipinas!!
wooo!! i waited this for a yr miss k n friends and family ko..
kaya lu2bus lubusin k na.
i will spend my 34 days of vacation wish k lng di umulan ng todo
althoug tag ulan ang uwi ko.. wish k lng d masayang ng ulan ang pag uwi ko.
gusto k sana i-wento dito yung nangyari sa akin one time w/my co-officemate
kaso wahahaha tinatamad ako. sory nmn!

lovlife?? well as of now zero pa din..
willing nmn ako mag-entertain kaso ndi pa ata time
at ayaw ko din ng ibang lahi.. loyal ako sa mga pinoy.. yeeaaah!!
i dont know.. i keep on waiting and wishing na someday
anjan na sya sa harap ko saying how much he love me
and very much willling to win me..
wahaha e kasi ang tigas tigas ko ngayon
siguro na din sa nangyari sa akin before..
i already moved on kaya lang...
hirap explain...

cge till here na lang muna
blessing ng bahay ni kuya hehehe

2008-01-07T09:55:00.000+03:00

Tougher tHan BefoRe, WELcOME to The AraB World My Dear!!

I had dis experienced yesterday (January 6, 2008)

Naglalakad lang ako papunta sa kabilang mall… (cguro ang layo nya hmmm from sm manila to lyceum)

Kaya carry lang maglakad the problem was walang nagla2kad kasi highway yun at puro mga nakacarwaletz ang mga tao ditto sa Qatar.

Ayun nga so naglalakad na ako, im surprised kasi hinintuan ako ng isang sasakyan..

Kala ko magtatanong lang sya kung san ang chorvang way… aba ang gago! Sabi ba naman sa akin

Lecheng arabo 1: want to come with me?? How much you cost?? 100 riyals?? 500 riyals??

Aba! Ang dputang yun! pinagkamalan akong pokerz! Nagpanting ang tenga ko…

Lahat ng dugo ko sa katawan hanggang sa pinaka daliri ko sa paa umakyat sa ulo ko…

Kala kasi ng mga lecheng arabo na yan sa mga pinay e pokpokerz.. dinidiscriminate nila ang mga lahi natin.. siempre ako d nagpatalo lumaban ang lola nyo! At ang sabi ko ay:

Nagmamaganda ako: “ wat?? Fuck u! back off!! U want me to call a police?? Seen this mobile?? I already hav ur plate no. anytime I can call a police to report you, and don’t u know dat this is recorded?? (sabay finger sign ng fuck you. Hehe!) ”

Oha! Natakot ang lolo nyo umalis! Aba! Di lang yun… may sumunod pa.. kung ano sinabi ko sa nauna Sinabi ko din sa kanya. Hahaha! Kala nila! Pag ako kinanti nila pu2tulan ko sila ng beklog nila! Hehe!

Hav u watched hills hav eyes part 2? Or planet terror? Hahaha kung pano nila dinukot mga itlog ng mga hayuf na mahihilig haha ganun ga2win ko sa kanila!

Mas pipiliin ko ng dukutan sila ng kaderder kesa naman magalaw nila ako! Hahaha! Mas yuck kaya yun!!

Dat experienced help me to be tougher! Hehe mean people made me tougher… d pwde yung paapi lang ang lola nyo! Korek???

2008-01-06T09:45:00.000+03:00

2008 New Year, new me….

Sorry for not updating my blog..

I’ve been busy thinking about my vacation these last Ramadan days

Thatz why ndi ako nagblog inatake ako ng katamaran ko. Hehe!!

Everybody start their blogging for New Yearz resolution, mki2-in na din ako.

Ako ang New Yearz resolution ko? Hmmmm…. I wanna change myself …

Iniisip ko lahat ng mga nangyari sa akin last 2007 of course ndi mawawala ang mga ups and down s buhay buhay.

Pain, sacrifices, happiness, blessings, etc… and I’m very thankful kasi kung wala yung mga yun

Ay gudluck naman sa akin d ber! Hahaha! Ewan ko lang kung makasurvive ako sa sinasabi nilang

“MAKULAY ANG BUHAY”

Buti na lang GOD is always there to give me strength, kung wala siguro sya Hahaha hays! Bka nagpakamatay na me. Ahihihihi (joke lang!)

Ayun mabalik tayo sa new year resolution ko, yun nga sabi nila diba “PeOpLe ChAnGe, and therez nothing permanent in this world, only the word CHANGE”

Kaya ako Hahaha gusto ko baguhin ang sarili ko ngaun, kung dati tough lang ako ngaun TOUGHER na

Kung dati I always consider otherz feelings hehehe, ngaun? Consider my feelings first before I consider yours.

Kaya no wonder kung maraming mabait ang nagiging bad eh. (wahahaha!! Feeling mabait??)

o ayan na ang aking panimulang pagbblog ulit sana ndi ako tamadin...

2007-09-12T14:01:00.000+03:00

Halaman ko sa bahay!!

Alam nyo ba na malaki pasasalamat sa atin ng mga halaman??
Kasi kung hindi daw dahil sa atin hindi sila tutubo…
Hindi sila magkakaroon ng magandang lugar na pagtutubuan…
Kung hindi din daw sa atin…
Walang mag-aalaga sa kanila…

Pero alam nyo ba na dapat din tayo magpasalamat sa knila!
Eh kasi sila nagbibigay ganda sa paligid!
O kaya naman nagbibigay ng pagkain sa atin! Oha!!
So pantay lang…

Ang ibig kong sabihin sa kwento ko na ito
Wag nyong pilitin ang isang halamanan na tumubo
Kasi tutubo din naman yan in time eh..
Panahon lang ang kailangan…
Kung ayaw tumubo o eh di ayaw!
May feelings din yan..
Hindi porket hindi sila gumagalaw ibig sabihin nun hindi kayo naiintindihan
Marunong din silang magdamdam
(nakz! Lalim! Pero may mas malalim pa akong ibig sabihin
kung ano man yun akin na lang wahahaha!!)

AT!!! hindi porket tumubo sya sa bakuran nyo
Pwde nyo ng sabihin sa knya na tumubo sya now na!
Wag ganun!
Pag namatay yang mga halaman na yan sa paligid mo
Sa tingin mo magiging masaya ka??
Hindi..
Sa tingin mo din ba magkakaron ng kulay paligid mo??
Hindi din..
Kaya isip-isip!!
(ayan nawala kasi ako sa concentration ko kaya ang ending hindi maganda)

2007-09-12T13:59:00.000+03:00

Different kinds of Sinigang

Isa sa mga favorite kung ulam eh sinigang! Hehe!
Sino ba naman ang hindi may gusto di ber!!
May different kinds of sinigang di ba??
May Isda, baboy, baka
yung manok sinampalukan kasi pero parang sinigang na din ang timpla
kaya gusto ko isasama ko sya sa grupo ng mga sinigang…
yang mga ulam na yan kapag lulutuin mo masasarap…
May kanya kanyang timpla at sahog
Lahat yan masarap…

Isang beses sinubukan ko magluto (wahaha feeling marunong??)
Una kong naisip lutuin ang isda..
Bakit??
Hmm kasi sa mga sinigang na yun actually pinaka least sya sa listahan ko
Una! Matinik ang isda wahaha! Kaya ayaw ko..
pero masarap naman sya
Masarap yung timpla nya..
kaso may kulang sa lasa kaya hindi ko na tinuloy…

Sumunod na naisip ko yung sinampalukan na manok
Ito infairness masarap din kasi maasim-asim
Kaso wahaha ang hindi ko naman type dun yung luya!!
Kaya naisip actually mahaba-habang isipan yun..
Nagtatalo pa ako sa sarili ko kung yun na lang…
Kaso natapos ako sa pag-iisip na wag na nga lang…

Pangatlong pumasok sa isip ko sinigang na baka!
Haha!!masarap sya.. lalo na yung buto..
Hays ang sarap! Pero! Ayan na naman! Hindi na ako nawalang ng pero
Eh kasi marami akong tinitake into consideration eh. Haha
Ayun nga kasi masebo ang baka mahihirapan maghugas (haha artey??)

Kaya nauwi ako sa sinigang na baboy..
Sa totoo lang pinakagusto ko sa lahat ng sinigang eh yung baboy…
Kasi masarap sya pag maasim at may anghang!!
Kaht wala syang lasa basa maanghang lang solve na ako.. dami ko pang nakakain!
Pero ito ang problema! (hindi na nawalan! Hahaha!)
Aalis kami! Kakain kami sa labas..
Hays kaya ayun nasayang lang ang oras ko sa pag-iisip
Kung ano ang lulutuin ko sana..
Sayang! Excited pa naman ako..
Kala ko makakapagluto na ako…

2007-09-12T11:08:00.001+03:00

Different ways kung pano isasara ang Third eye

Naalala nyo yung wento ko about sa sa tubig na natuyo??
Yung kwentuhan naming ng kaibigan kong palaka…
Hehe! Meron na naman kmi napagwentuhan kahapon
May koneksyon ito dun sa natuyong tubig at multo…

Alam nyo naman siguro ang third eye d ber?
Sabi nila pag nakabukas daw third eye mo
Makakakita ka ng mumu
tpos malakas yung pakiramdam mo na anjan lang sila sa tabi tabi…
kasi pareho nakabukas third eye naming dalawa kaya yung mga mumu
sa tabi-tabi nararamdaman namin..

ngayon ganto yun.. tinanong nya ako sabi nya… (sencia na edited and mga script para may konting kurot sa audience)

Palakang ulaga: maganda maganda! (letse ang umangal!) alam mo ba masaya ako! Ang saya saya ko!!
Maganda (siempre ako yun!haha!): o bakit? Anong nangyari??
Palakang ulaga: ahihihi!! Eh kasi may nagsasara n ang third eye ko!! Wala na akong mumu nakikita!! Haha!!
Maganda: o e di gud! It means ndi ka na disturb sa knya! Hope tuloy-tuloy na yan..
Palakang ulaga: haha!! Sana nga! Basta ang saya-saya ko talaga!
Maganda: o e kamusta na yung multo? Nagpaparamdam pa din ba?
Palakang ulaga: henaku! Nagsawa na ako sa knya lagi na lang nya ako ginugulo..
Lagi na lang ako sinasapian sa tuwing nararamdaman ko sya.. buti nga ngayon hindi na masyado kasi nga dun sa wizard na nagsasara ng third eye ko eh..
Maganda: wow! Ayus yan! Haha! Kelangan mo lang tlaga ng taga sara… haha ako sariling sikap.. walang wizard dito eh.
Palakang ulaga: haha oo nga o sya cge na. layas na ako bukas na lng ulit..
Maganda: ok! Nyt nyt!

Hindi pa dun nagtatapos ang usapan namin! Hahaha!!
After nun maya-maya may nareceive akong txt from her…
Ito nakalagay:
“Maganda! (wahaha!! May ganun??) bakit ganun! Nanindig balahibo ko!
Yung mumu nagparamdam ulit! Buti na lang low bat ako..
Nireplyan ko ang palaka ito sabi ko:
“ay ning! Hayaan mo na lang sya magparamdam.. wag ka na matakot
Remember meron nang nagtatanggal ng thrd eye mo.
Hindi naman basta basta mawawala kagad yan.. mahabang ritual pagagawin nyan
Bago ka tuluyan hindi sapian”
Maganda: shet! Failed! Bkt ayaw magsnd!! Henaku maya na nga lang pag-uwi ko txt ko sa chika.
Ayun nasnd ko naman sa knya pagkauwi ko…

Kaya kayo kung may mumu pa din sa tabi tabi hayaan nyo na lang magpramdam yan
O magpakita sa inyo..
Kasi hanggat pinapansin nyo sila at nararamdaman nilang takot ka sa knila
Mas lalong lumalakas ang kapal ng face nilang magparamdam…
Mas tumitindi ang powers nila.. dahil nga sa takot kayo sa knila
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN MY FRIEND!!

2007-09-08T15:45:00.001+03:00

May isang Pusa

Bago ako umuwi ng bahay meron isang lugar ako na lagi dinadaanan…
Magaganda mga bahay dun sa lugar na yun kaya doon ko gustong dumaan…
Tos meron pa dun na isang bagay kaya gustong-gusto dun dumaan..
Meron kasi dun isang pares ng pusa…
Ahihihi… ang cute cute ng pusa dalawa sila…
Cguro sinadya un ng may-ari ng bahay na gawin babae at lalaki…
Makikita ko yun minsan… nag-aaway… minsan nmn naglalambingan…
Hahaha ang cute cute nga nila eh…

Mga ilang buwan din ako hindi dumaan sa lugar na yun…
Siempre namimiss ko tingnan yung mga pusa
Masyado na kasi ako madaming ginagawa eh…
Ayun nga isang beses napadaan ako..
Sabi ko try ko sila silipin…
Pagkadating ko sa lugar nay un… wala akong nakitang pusa…
Hinanap ko sila…

Nakita ko yung isang pusa andun sa isang sulok ng bahay…
May ginagawa.. hinahanap ko talaga yung isa kaso hindi ko talaga Makita
Umuwi na lang ako sa amin, sabi ko bukas na lang…
Habang naglalakad ako…
May nakita akong pusa naglalakad…
Sabi ko parang familiar sya sa akin…
So nilapitan ko…

Pero kapag nalapit ako umaatras sya palayo..
Kaya hinayaan ko na lang sya makita in a distance (nyahaha!!)
Pinagmamasdan ko sya… at naalala ko na!
Sya yung pusa sa magandang bahay na pinupuntahan ko dati lagi!!
Gustong-gusto ko syang kunin…
Gusto ko syang dalhin sa bahay kaso hindi pwde..
Paalis na yung pusa hindi ko alam kung san sya pupunta…
Wala akong magawa kundi tingnan sya palayo…

Hindi ko alam kung ano yung nararamdaman ko..
Awa dahil mag-isa lang sya…
Kahit sino naman mahirap mag-isa…
Lalo na kapag malayo ka sa pamilya mo at kaibigan…
Wala kang masasandalan kundi sarili mo lang…

Pero may maganda naman naidudulot yun minsan…
Mas lalo kang lumalakas… tumatapang…
Yun lang nakakalungkot talaga ang mag-isa..
Gusto ko sya alagaan sa bahay..
Want ko sya patirahin dun…
Pero paano??
Nakikitira din lang ako sa mga parents ko
Baka ano pa marinig ko dun.. hehe!!
Pero para dun sa pusa na yun…
Gusto ko maging masaya sya kung san man sya mapunta
Sana lagi syang happy…
KAYA NYA YAN…

2007-09-02T13:29:00.000+03:00

FHM's TOP 10

Sa totoo lang hindi ako nagbabasa ng FHM pero....
sino ba naman kasi ang hindi mapapalingon sa mga TOP 10 model na ito...
hindi ko pinangarap ang sarili ko dahil wala akong "K" pero itong mga model na ito! oha! san ka pa!! daig pa si Kathrina Halili...

Top 10!!!

San ka pa! sponsor pa ni sarao motors!

Top 9!!

Ayaw nya sa pader!! hindi nya gusto ang pader!! hate na hate nya si wall!!

Top 8!!

Chinorva ni chuva ang nagbabagang apoy sa may chenelyn!!

Top 7

Yung highlights ng pic eh yung yosi talaga... hindi sya
sya lang yung abo...

Top 6

Muntik ko na syang mawala sa top list ko...
ganyan sila magpromote ng strap ng sandals...
bongga!!

Top 5

Mashoray ang lola mo!! hindi nya trip pakita legs nya!
san ka pa jan! buti na lang hindi gala mga toro sa pinas..

Top 4

hmmm... bj! bj! bj kayo jan!!! yan yung service daw na nirerender nya ning!

Top 3

After the rain has gone... ganyan mangyayari senyo... o cge! papaulan pa kayo???

Top 2

Split!! yan ang tinatawag na ledge dancer (nyahahaha tama ba??)
yan yung pole na sinasayawan nya...

And the most awaited! FHM's best model!!

Top 1!

Simplicity and black is beauty!!
letse!! wag nang umangal!
"sabi kasi nila seksi ka daw pag nakablack ka"
aba nagrason pa! oha!

Pasencia na mga kablogista nakita ko lang ito sa forum na madalas ko puntahan
hehe!! salamat sa pagbisita!

2007-09-01T10:24:00.000+03:00

Ang Paru-paro ko.. bow…

Na-inspired na naman ako gumawa ng isang post…
Nakita ko kasi ito ulit sa idea ng isa sa mga bisita ko… ahihihi…
Nung bata pa kayo mahilig ba kayo manghuli ng paru-paro???
Ako kasi… hindi…(wahahaha!!!)
Eh takot kaya ako!! Feeling ko kakagatin nila ako….
Pero siempre minsan naisip ko… ang sarap siguro manghuli…
Kason natatakot talaga ako eh…
Isang beses sinamahan ko kaibigan ko manghuli…
Sabi ko sya na lang manghuli.. natatakot ako.. panonoorin ko na lang siya manghuli…
Eh di ayun nga… aba! Enjoy na enjoy sya manghuli ng paru-paro infairness!
Iba-ibang kulay! Magaganda naman…
Kaso ewan ko ba dun! Kapag nagsawa pinapakawalan na nya! Sayang yung effort!
Siyempre pati yung mga paru-paro sayang din… hehe!!

Habang nanghuhuli sya sabi nya may hinuli daw sya para sa akin…
Sabi ko sa kanya… ayaw ko nga want ko dadapo na lang yung paru-paro sa akin…
Eh sabi nya nahuli na daw nya.. kaya ayun tinanggap ko na lang….
Maganda naman yung paru-paro…
Inaalagaan ko nga eh… kasi nagandahan ako sa kanya…
Yung mga pakpak nya ang gaganda ng kulay…
Sa araw-araw na ginawa haha! Hindi ko sya nakakalimutan alagaan…
Inangkin ko na nga eh! (nyahahaha!!)
Pero isang beses nawala ako ng ilang buwan…
Iniwan ko sya kasi hindi ko sya pwdeng isama
No pets allowed daw (ahihihi…)
Kaya pinaalagaan ko muna sa mga kakilala ko…
Pero hindi ko naman sya nakakalimutan i-check…
Bumalik ako sa bahay namin at kinamusta ko ang butterfly ko….
Napansin ko mukha syang malungkot…
Wala ng kulay…

Kinausap ko sya kahit hindi sya marunong magsalita…
Sabi ko kamusta ka na?? bakit mukha kang matamlay??
Naiinip ka na ba?? Gusto mo bang lumipad??
Parang naintindihan ako ng butterfly ko… kasi yung mga pakpak nya gumalaw…
So ginawa ko… nilabas ko sya sa hawla nya…
Pinalipad ko muna sya kasi baka gusto nya ulit lumipad…
Bata pa yung butterfly ko kaya want ko makita nya din kung gaano kaganda ang mundo
Gusto ko maranasan nyang lumipad! Hanapin ang sarili…
Kung yung butterfly ko na yun bumalik sa akin… akin na sya…
Pero kung hindi ibig sabihin nun hindi sya para sa akin…
Pero sa totoo lang kahit masakit sa akin na pakawalan yung butterfly ko…
Wala ako magagawa kailangan nyang lumipad…
Pano sya matuto kung sa akin lang sya lagi…

Ayaw ko sana isipin ng butterfly ko na hindi ko sya gusto kaya ko sya pinakawalan
Sinubukan ko syang kausapin bago ko sya pinakawalan..
Pero wala akong sagot na nakuha mula sa knya…
Hinayaan ko na lang sya…
Sana lang maintindihan nya kung bakit ko yun ginawa…
Nasaktan ako nung pinalipad ko sya… pero… para sa knya naman yun…
Masaya ako para sa kanya kasi sa nakikita at nararamdaman ko naman ay masaya sya…
Kung nasan man yung butterfly ko na yun…
Hmmmm…. Wag ka ng babalik!! Wag ka ng papakita kahit kelan!!
Wahahaha!!! Joke lng!!!
Hindi serious na ako…
Isang malaking salamat!! Hehe!! Ayan! Bukal sa puso… hahaha!!

2007-08-30T13:22:00.000+03:00

Nanlalamig ako sa multo…

Nakakita na ba kayo ng multo???
Ako hindi pa… whahaha!!
Ano na naman koneksyon ng multo??
Kasi kanina lang may multo akong naramdaman…
Nanlalamig ako…
Nawala ako sa sarili ko…
Sa sobrang takot ko gusto kong maiyak..
San ako nakakita??
Hindi ko nga nakita! Naramdaman ko lang habang nagtatrabaho ako…
Kasi kanina habang katxt ko ang kaibigan ko na si anne
Bigla na lang ako nanlamig…
Hays ewan ko ba…

Grabe yung presence ng multo na yun!
Pakiramdam ko maghapon ko syang iisipin…
Sana tigilan na ako ng multo na yun..
Gusto ko ng manahimik…
Nagugulo ang buhay ko…
Pwede syang magparamdam cguro after 1 yr… hehehe!!wag lang ngayon kasi nanlalamig pa ako sa knya…
Ayokong makarinig kahit kaluskos ng mga yapak nya…
O kaya naman mga tawa nyang nakakatakot…
Hindi ko na kaya ito gusto kong sumigaw!

Nahirapan akong wag syang intindihin…
Pero paano??
Sa tuwing ramdam ko na tatahimik na sya
Anjan na naman magpaparamdam…
Sabihin na natin hindi diretsa sa akin…
Pero kahit simpleng kalabit lang lakas n ang impact!
Masyado na akong nadidisturbed ng multo na ito…
Hays…

2007-08-28T13:39:00.000+03:00

Natuyot ang tubig sa ilog (water runs dry.. .)

Bakit kamo?? Hehe… wala lang…
Hindi kasi ganto yan nag-usap kami ng isa sa mga tropa ko…
A friend of mine has love problem
(siempre! Hmm! lagi na lang yan ang problem… ng mga girls)
Ngayon sabi nya kasi kung pano daw nya maiiwasan
Yung taong gusto nyang iwasan…
Gusto nyang iwasan kasi hindi na daw nya ma-take ang pagiging playful nito
Sa mga girlaloo! So she gave up…
Nung una talaga willing syang tanggapin yun…
Pero siyempre kung ikaw mismo sa sarili mo
Kahit gaano mo kamahal yung isang tao may limitations…

Ito yung chikahan namin:

Palaka: panu ka namn lalayo sa taong to e kahapon sabi nya ilang beses nya tiningnan sa list ng nakapasa ung pangalan ko. tapos after 8 months, kahapon lng nya ako ulet hinatid. nag i love you pa nga sa txt. pano ko namn xang iiwan ng ganyan?
maganda: hahahaha
maganda: d m b maiwasan?
maganda: lolz
Palaka: e ako umiiwas na
Palaka: xa tong lumalapit
Palaka: pero kahit ganun pinipilit kong umiwas pa rin
Palaka: pero anong magagawa ko kung ganyan xa
maganda: haha
maganda: tpos
Palaka: ngaun nga lagi nagttxt
Palaka: hays
Palaka: kagabi nag gm, special mention pa ako
Palaka: tapos nag love u pa kagabi
Palaka: kmusta namn un
Palaka: ako na umiiwas xa tong nalapit
Palaka: nde ko na alam kung ano gusto nyang mangyari
maganda: aw
maganda: bka kasi nararamdaman nyang palayo ka na
maganda: so now p lng nisasave n nya ung tubig bago matuyo
Palaka: edi kung gusto nyang wag matuyo sa isang ilog lang xa lumanggoy
maganda: hahaha
maganda: yun ang mahihirapan ka
maganda: d sya sanay
Palaka: nde namn ako dapat magsabi sa kanya ng dapat nyang gawin
Palaka: panigurado mag aaway lng kme
maganda: malamang... o eh pano yan?? umuulan? Pano matutuyo ung ilog?
Palaka: ewan ko
maganda: haha! eh hindi m maiiwasan ndi umulan pabugso-bugso ang hangin nyan.. kung ang pag-asa nga hindi maforecast ang bagyo.. feelings p kaya ng tao..

Yan ang aming naging talakayan…
alam mo palaka este my dear friend…
nasa sayo naman yung decision na yan eh…
kung hindi mo na kaya then stop!
Kahit na may feelings pa sya…
Oo andun na tayo mahirap
Pero wala naman madali sa mundo eh…
Lahat ng gusto natin kelangan makuha natin ng pahirapan
Minsan pa nga di ba kahit anong gusto natin hindi pa rin natin makuha
Isipin mo na lang yung pagkapasa mo sa board exam ng mga nurse
ur only 20 (tama ba?)
Madami ka pang makikilala
Sa trabaho mo.. sa paligid-ligid madami jan
Lahat ng bagay may limitasyon
At hindi din lahat ng pagmamahal kelangan i-tolerate!
Teka! Teka! Teka! Hindi ako bitter ah!

Ilang buwan ka na bang nakikipaglaban jan??
Ano napapala mo??
Mas lalo ka lang nasasaktan… habang tumatagal..
Sabi nga sa isang song “love aint enough”
Pero nasa sayo naman yan eh.. hehe! Choice mo yan…
Ang sa akin lang…
minsan mapapatunayan mo din ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao
kapag nag let go ka…
ok!! Pero kung ayaw mo eh di wag! Hehe sarili mo naman yan
kaw naman ang masasaktan…
kaw din naman ang nagiging masaya…
ang sa akin lang naman eh points of view lang..

2007-08-27T17:37:00.000+03:00

Ulan sa pilipinas… nakakamiss

Bumisita ako sa bahay ng isa sa mga nagbblog…
Sabay sa pagbisita sa blogsite nila siyempre kasama na ang tamang basa…
Nabasa ko ang blog nung friend ni ate cabz sa lyceum…
Kaya nagka-idea ako kung ano naman ang susunod ko na i-bblog…
At yun nga ang ULAN!! (hehe!)

Namimiss ko na ang ulan sa pilipinas…
Yung lamig na kasama nya lagi sa tuwing dadaanan nya ang PINAS…
Yung amoy ng lupa (kahit masakit sa tyan…)
Nagliliparan na mga yero at tangkay ng mga puno…
Mga batang nagtatakbuhan sa labas para maligo…
Baha sa kabilang subdivision…
Madami pa…tinatamad na akong magbanggit….

Naalala ko dati nung bata pa ako…
Gustong-gusto din naming maligo sa ulan…
Minsan patakas pa nga… sasabihin ko.. “ay nabasa po ako”
Wahahaha!! At papayagan na akong maligo sa ulan nyan…

Kahit hanggang sa pagtanda naliligo pa din ako sa ulan…
Lalo na pag trip ng tropa! Wooo!!! Pare ang sarap!
Isang beses pa nga trip namin,
Kapag umiinom kami tapos biglang umulan maliligo kami sa ulan!!
Kaso sayang! Hindi umulan... hehe!! Di bale meron pa naman next time…

Masarap din ang ulan lalo na pagkasama mo special someone mo (nakz! Yihaa!!)
Haha! Siyempre! ano ber! Malamig sasabihin mo… payakap naman!
Oha!! Swit!! Kakakilig pa!... at siyempre!!
Hindi maaaring hindi masundan yan ng pakiss naman! Hehe!
Aba! Masarap siempre kayakap ang iyong minamahal mga ganyang oras…
Tapos share din kayo sa umbrella!! Yihaaa!!
Ano pa ba mga sharing moments kapag umuulan?? Hmm…
Masarap din kasi magkatabi kayo… hahaha!!
O sya sya! Tama na ang pagpapantasya!
Na-share ko lang na nakakamiss ang ulan sa pinas hehe!!

2007-08-27T13:28:00.000+03:00

Kape paborito kong inumin...

Mahilig akong uminom ng kape…
Natuto akong uminom ng kape when I was in college…
I used to drink coffee for every reviews…
Since then it became my hobby…(shalah! English! Try lang!)
Araw-araw mapa may gatas o itim lang na kape iniinom ko..
Adik nga eh!
Hanggang ngaun routine ko na uminom ng kape…
Umaga, hapon, gabi..
Minsan kahit bago matulog iinum pa din ako!
Ewan ko ba… kapag hindi nga ako nakakainom sumasakit ang ulo ko…

Hindi matatapos ang araw ko ng hindi ako nakakainom ng kape!
Kapag lalabas kami ng tropa
Hindi pwedeng hindi kami dadaan sa coffee shop…
Kahit anong flavors ng kape!
Pero ang pinakagusto ko sa lahat yung white chocolate mocha…
Atsaka hot dapat ayoko ng cold... nasusuka ako sa cold eh...
Sabi nila kapag sobra ka sa kape masama..
Sabi ko naman lahat naman ng bagay pag sobra masama..

Sa tingin nyo bakit kape ang topic ko??
Ang kape kasi hindi ba masarap sa umaga lalo na pag mainit…
Kapag gigising ka masarap sa pang amoy yung aroma nya…
Minsan nakakarelax din sya…
Sabi din nila kapag umiinom ka ng kape nakakapagpabata
Dahil daw sa dami ng antioxidants…
Parang kapag lagi kang nakatawa o nakangiti
Nakakapagpabata…
minsan din naman ayaw nila ng kape kasi mapait

May isa kaming characteristic ng kape na pareho…
Nakakapagbata! (nyahahaha!! Feeling??)
joke lang!
Eh kasi pareho kaming nakakapagbigay saya/aliw sa mga taong mahal namin
(ang komontra sumpa!)
Kaya tara ng tumikim ng kape! Hehe!
pero siempre hindi lahat ng tao gusto din ng kape
kaya hindi din lahat ng tao mapplease ko...

2007-08-27T13:26:00.000+03:00

Ang hilig ko ay sumayaw!...

Bata pa lang ako mahilig na ako sumayaw
Sa mga contest na nasalihan ko nung bata pa ako…
ang talent ko lagi eh ang sumayaw…
Elementary, high school at college lagi ako sumasali sa mga group dancers…
Hehe ewan ko nga ba… eh yun ang talent ko! Magagawa ko!
Sa tuwing sasayaw ako… masarap sa pakiramdam…
Pagod ko nawawala basta sumasayaw ako…

Sa gimik?? Sa mga bar?? Haha dance floor lagi hanap ko…
Pero hindi ako nakikipagsayaw sa mga boylet ah!
Mga tropa kong mahilig din sumayaw ang mga kasama ko…
Katulad ni ate cabz! Ayan! Partner ko talaga sa dancefloor yan!!
Sila tiny at ryan na classmate nya from lyceum…
Si shiny at anne! Na sumasayaw dahil pinilit ko lang… haha!!
Atsaka mga bading! Ayan ang mga gustong-gusto kong kasayawan!
Siempre nho!!! Hindi mga manyak!! Hindi mga nanghihipo!...
Si kuya Winston! Ayan!! Go go din sa dancefloor yan!! Dance sweeper daw sya!
Kapag may nagtangkang makisayaw… friends to the rescue!!!
Magkukumpulan kami para walang umextra.. haha!!
Kasi nga ang hanap namin eh ang magpalipas pagod lang…

Haha!! Namimiss ko na ang sumayaw…
Nung asa pinas pa ako…
Nag-enroll ako sa isang dance school…
Hehe!! Street jazz… every 2 days in a week may dance class ako…
From cavite dadayo pa ako ng libis! Para sa dance lesson…
Wala lang kanya-kanyang kahiligan lang yan eh…
Lahat ng sayaw kaya ko sayawin…

Kapag may gustong makipag-sayaw, eh di go! Sayaw lang!
Sayaw lang naman eh…
Kaso dapat kaya nyang sabayan ang steps ko…
Oha! Ganun talaga….pero kaya ko din naman sundan ang steps mo…
Turuan mo lang ako… konting step by step… khalas!!
Sabay na sumasayaw paa natin…

Hehe minsan ndi ko maiiwasan matapakan ang paa ng kapartner ko
Ganun din naman sya…
Madaming dahilan…
Minsan sa sobrang saya ng tugtug masyado tayong high!
Nagwawala natatapakan na natin yung paa…
Minsan din naman kapag hindi natin alam ang steps at tinuturuan tayo ng partner natin
Hindi din natin maiiwasan matapakan ang paa nya...
Kahit na ganun importante nagkakaintindihan kayo sa bawat galaw…
Pumapasok sa utak yung mga maling steps tsaka nyo sabay na pag-aralan ulit…
Ayus lang magkamali! Parte na yan ng sayaw…

Bakit sayaw ang topic ko???
Bukod kasi sa talent ko ang sumayaw…
Ang buhay ko parang sayaw…
Kung ano ang tugtug yun ang sasayawin ko…
Kahit anong klaseng music ang ipatugtug ng buhay..
Go lang ako! Pano mo maeenjoy kung mamimili ka??
Pano mo ka magiging masaya kung hindi ka makikisabay??
May pagka spontaneity kasi ako..
Nahirapan ako pagnagpplano…
Atsaka mahirap din ang nakaplano masyado…
Hmmm but of course meron din nakaplan sa akin…
And that is the future of my baby…yun nakaplan na yun..
But yung iba.. I leave it as it is…
Life is too short… enjoy life!

2007-08-26T15:17:00.000+03:00

Ang anghel sa simbahan

Isang gabi naglalakad ako patungo sa simbahan na malapit sa amin…
Goodluck sa layo di ba!! Cguro mula megamol hanggang metro walk (example lng!)….
Mga 1130 ng gabi yun (lakas ng loob nho!!)
Wala kasi ako sa sarili ko nung mga panahon na yun….
Masyado ako nadadala ng problema ko nun sa buhay…
Nalaman ko kasi na may kahati pala ako sa kare-kare
Eh masyadong masakit sa akin yun…
Biro mo ah!! Ang tagal na panahon akong nagtiis para lang kainin yung kare-kare!!
Hindi naman kasi talaga ako nakain nun (yaw ko tlga ng gulay!!)
Tapos!! Tapos!!
Hays ang totoo kasi nyan…
May iba syang babae, kala ko ako pipiliin nya…
nagkamali ako…
sobrang depressed talaga ako nun..
every night pumupunta ako ng church para umiyak…(hehe!!)
wala akong kasama.. ako lang talaga mag-isa
madilim kaya sa may simbahan…
siempre walang tao!
Walang ilaw!...
Para sa akin ng mga oras na yun hindi delikado….
Hindi ko iniinda ang panganib (nakz! Wee!)
Eh kasi nga wala ako sa sarili!!!
Ang naiisip ko lang nun eh gusto ko ilabas ang sakit na nafifeel ko that time…

Ayun asa simbahan na ako.. walang tigil sa pag-iyak…
Nagppray.. hehe! Nagtatanong sa sarili…
Hanggang sa hindi ko namamalayan…
May lalaki na palang lumapit sa akin….
Maitim sya… mukhang ndi mapagkakatiwalaan… naka short at sando ng puti…
Hindi ko sya kilala nilapitan nya ako..
Pero ako dedma… hehe!! Hindi ako natatakot kasi umiiyak pa din ako…
Tinanong nya ako, sabi nya:

Lalaki: ne, umiiyak ka ba??
Ako: po?? (sumisinghot-singhot pa.. pinipigilan ko kasi umiyak.. nahihiya ako..)
Lalaki: bakit ka umiiyak?? Kasi knina pa kita napapansin na umiiyak eh.. ano b ngyari sau??
Ako: huh?? Wala po ok lang po ako…(ayan n nakakaramdam na ako ng takot… pero onti lang..)
Lalaki: pasencia ka na ha.. hinihintay ko kasi asawa ko dito eh.. sabi nya dito kami magkikita… hanggang ngayon wala pa sya eh..
Ako: ganun po ba? Cge po hintayin nyo na lang po…
Lalaki: sabi nya kasi hintayn ko daw sya… gusto nya daw ako kausapin tungkol sa amin…
Ako: Bakit po?? (aba! Usisera ang bklang ito nagawa pang magtanong natatakot na nga!)
Lalaki: kasi sundalo ako… kaya din cguro nagawa ng asawa ko maghanap ng iba kasi lagi akong nasa malayo…
Ito nga at hinihintay ko sya kasi sabi nya mag-uusap daw kami…
Nung una akala ko makikipagbalikan sya… hindi pala…
Gusto nya lang kami mag-usap kung pano ang gagawin naming set up
Para sa mga anak naming…
Mahirap siempre mahal ko pa sya… kaso alangan ipilit ko ang sarili ko…
Nagtrabaho pa naman ako para sa knila…

Ako: kasal po ba kayo?? (aw! Nagtanong k n nmn!)
Lalaki: oo nagpakasal kami bago ako umalis

Siempre! Nahabag ako
Sabi ko sa sarili ko may mas grabe pa palang namroroblema sa akin…
Nagpaalam na sya sa akin after nun…

Lalaki: sige neng alis na ako hindi na ata dadating yung asawa ko…
Ako: cge po… baka po mamaya dadating yun…
Lalaki: salamat sana nga…

Umalis yung lalaki hindi ko namamalayan… maya maya hehe usisera kasi ako eh…
Hinanap ko sya…aba!! WALA NA!! ang bilis mag lakad nung lolo mo!
Kahit anino hindi ko nakita… hehe medyo kinilabutan ako… kaya umuwi na ako…
Pero naisip ko habang naglalakad ako… hindi kaya sya si god??
Hindi kaya isa syang angel na pinadala ni god for me??
Sabi nila magpapakita si god sayo in a different form…
Yung least na iniexpect mo…
Si god yun… I know… gusto nyang sabihin sa akin na be strong…
Na alam nyang I can fight my struggles…
Na I can face everything!
Na hindi ako ang nawalan!
Simula nun I started diverting myself…
Sumama ako sa mga tropa ko…
Sumali ako sa mga organizations…
At successful naman yung nangyari…
Nkayanin ko din yun for a yr..
And look at me now…
Still fighting…
Dami pa kasi akong dreams…
Dami ko pa gusting gawin…
Patunayan…
Just pray to god…
Hindi ka nya iiwan… believe me!
He will send you an angel… like what he did to me…
Kaya goodluck to your journey!!

2007-08-25T11:41:00.000+03:00

Akala ko mapakla na ulit ang alak hindi pa pala…

(nyahaha ang bilis ko magpost ngayon ah! Hehe meron na naman ako bago today!)
Nung asa pinas pa me.. hay nku!!
Wala ako ginawa kundi ang pumunta sa bahay ng tropa ko
After office hours
Dun kasi ako nakakapagrelax at nakakabawi after ng maghapong work…
Tos madalas pa nga inuman or bar hopping… hehe. (ang gimikera ko nho??)
Kaya napagkakamalan ako na madaming jowa eh ang hilig ko kasi sa nightlife
Or kahit anong kasiyahan but the truth is… hindi pakikipaglalaki ang hanap ko…
nagboboys hunting kami oo… Pero hanggang hunting lang…
pandagdag spice lang sa gimik…
ayun mabalik tayo sa main topic.. off topic na ako eh..
pag kagaling ko work diretcho sa bahay ng tropa…
mag-iinuman pag may anda..
kung uminum kami dati 2 days in a week!
Basta weekly meron inuman na nagaganap!...
Haha!! Kaya malakas ako uminom
Kahit ano iniinum namin..
Pero madalas.. empe, or gran matador…
Yung mga san mig… parang juice na lang yan sa tropa…
That’z why we called our troops named “wasalak”
WAlang SAwa sa aLAK

Kaya nung pagpunta ko dito sa Qatar….
Mdyo nanibago aketch
Nahinto ako sa pag-iinum…
wala na kasi akong kasabayan uminum ditto
imbis na pang-iinumin ko yung oras na yun…
itutulog ko na lang..
nakakapagod magwork ditto kasi wala kang ibang gagawin
kundi mag trabaho ng magtrabaho
ibang-iba talaga lifestyle ditto compare sa pinas…

sa atin hindi ka mapapagod kahit puyat ka ng isang araw o dalawa
dito ramdam mo yung pagod sa maghapong-pagtatrabaho…
isang beses nagkayayaan uminom…
sabi ko mukhang ayaw ko na uminum kasi baka nagbago na panlasa ko
baka bumalik na sya ulit sa dating mapakla…

aba nung tinikman ko ang isang shot ng emperador para sa akin
hindi pa din pala nangungupas…
wahahaha!!!
Masarap pa din sya… hindi ko pa ramdam ang pait ng alak…
Kala ko bumalik sa mapakla.. hindi pala…
Ganun din ang buhay ng tao…
Kala natin mapakla pa…
Hindi natin malalaman hanggat hindi natin nasusubukan tikman
Hindi ba??
Malay mo hindi na pala mapakla…
Masyado lang tayo nadadala ng damdamin…
Nauunahan tao ng mentality natin…
Madalas ganun eh…
Kapag nasabi ng utak na mapakla yan…
Akala natin mapakla nga…
Bakit hindi kaya natin subukan ilagay sa utak natin na ganto:
“mapakla pala ah! Tikman nga kita”
O di ber!! Ang shalah!!

2007-08-25T11:28:00.000+03:00

Salitang churva!

Pag nasa ibang bansa ka mahirap makipagkatalsikan ng laway (pasencia na sa salita)
Kasi una! Hindi naman kayo magkalahi.
Pangalawa! Iba ang salita nila. At ang
Pangatlo! Madami din sa kanila ang mahina pag dating sa International Language
(oha! Kala nyo pinoy lang ang mahina sa English! Hindi nho!)

Kami naman ng mga ka-officemates ko sa work may dalawang amo
Isang Japanese at isang Jordanian
Kaming mga secretary nila ay mga pinoy!
(Oha! United Nation ang office naming! May mga kasama pa kaming mga pana!)
Pero kasi kapag nag-uusap kami ng ka-officemate ko hindi namin magamit ang tagalog
Bakit kamo?! Eh kasi yung isa naming amo may lahing Spanish!
Di ba karamihan sa mga salita natin eh may halong Spanish (nakz!)
So naintindihan nya kami.. katulad ng

Katabi: Hindi sila nagkakaintindihan
Ako: Baguhin natin ung salitang “nagkakaintindihan”
Katabi: Bakit?
Ako: Dahil naiintindihan nya yun! Ang intindi sa Spanish ay “inciendes”

Tapos bigla na lang kami nagulat ng sumagot ang amo naming..

Amo ko: ako ba ang pinag-uusapan nyo??

Wahaha!! Shock kami ng mga lola nyo!! Lumipas mga araw nahirapan na kami magsalita ng tagalog mapa malalim na salita o basic lang. At buti na lang!! kami ni ate cabz! Nasanay na magsalita ng salitang churva! Kaya ayun! Yun na lang ang naisipan namin ng ka-officemate ko na gamitin namin na words dito.. at least di pa kami maiintindihan! O di ber!! Ang churva!! Hahaha!!

2007-08-22T15:36:00.000+03:00

Kina-aadikan…

May bago kaming kina-aadikan ni ate cabz ngayon…
Wahaha!! May kanya-kanya kming mundong ginagalawan
Kapag asa sariling mga office kami…
katulad nung sa kanya..

si ate jackie grabe!! Addict yan sa blog! Sa isang araw pinaka mahina
na nyang post ang tatlo..
hehe! Dami nya naiisip ilagay sa blogspot nya…
kung ano maisip nyang gawin, go!!
Sabi nya kasi frustrated writer daw sya…

Ako din naman nagbblog last yr pa kaso tinamad ako..
Tinatamad ako mag-ayos ng blog ko kaya hindi ko sya na-uupdate
Nito lang ulit ako bumalik sa pagbblog
Nagbblog lang kasi ako kapag may hindi magndang ngyari sa akin
Lalong-lalo na pag sobrang depressed ako..
Dun ko nailalabas mga hinanakit ko sa life… (yeahboy!!)

Pero ayun nga! Si ate Jackie dun na-adik madami na din syang
Mga naging kaibigan thru blog hopping…
And nakikita ko naman na masaya sya dahil iba’t-ibang tao
Ang nakakabasa ng blog nya lalo na pag may pumipuri sa knya

Ako naman!! Adik ako ngayon sa forum! Haha!! Grabe na ito
Nagsimula ako sumali sa mga forum when I was in college…
Sa school kasi namin konti lang ang mga site na pwde mo pasukan
Nagkataon naman na yung site ng school namin may mga gantong activities…

Ayun una sinubukan ko muna magpost ng kung anik-anik na comments and suggestions
Hanggang sa siempre natuwa ako at may mga sumasagot agad…
Kaya ayun! Every break ko ng tig-aapat na oras!
Tumatambay ako sa library at nagnenet! Hehe
Parang kasi din nakikipag-chat ka
Eh since bawal sa school ang irc at yahoo messenger…
Patusin na ang forum!!

Then one time I received an email from unknown sender… (nyahaha!!)
Sabi join daw ako sa forum nila…
O ayun o cge join nga ako…
Hanggang sa nakasanayan ko na naman magpost ng magpost sa kanila
Haha!! Lakas ko nga magpost dun eh…
Kala mo mga kakilala mo mga kausap mo..
Actually lahat kayo stranger sa isa’t-isa
Hindi ko alam kung pano nakuha ni ate joyce (name ng founder ata nung forum)
Yung email add ko…

Ayun! Yun ang latest addiction naming ni cabz nowadays
Wahaha! Pati ang friend namin na si anne nkiki addict na din..
Wala din naman kasi kaming ibang gingawa ditto eh..
Yun lang ang buhay namin ditto…
Trabaho, bahay
Bahay, trabaho
Basta may net, cp, at food buhay na kmi… (hehehe!)

2007-08-21T18:42:00.000+03:00

I cant be with you because....

So many things why I cant be with you
I cant be with you coz of our age hindrance
I cant be with you coz am here and you’re there
I cant be with you coz we have different beliefs
I cant be with you coz of our different settings
I cant be with you coz I wanted you to be happy with someone else…same as mine
I cant be with you coz I hate you
I cant be with you coz we move on
I cant be with you coz I cant love you anymore and I have to…
Most of all I cant be with you coz we are not meant to be…

2007-08-21T18:23:00.000+03:00

ang sugat ko na masakit....

When I was 19 yrs. Old I gave birth to my daughter..
Grabe! Ang hirap kaya mabuntis! Hehe!!
Siempre ang daming bawal!
Ang daming hindi pwde!
Hindi ka din makagalaw!
Mahirap pumuwesto

Gustuhin ko man na humiga ng pabaluktot, patihaya, nkadapa
Hindi ko magawa kasi hindi pwede…
Habang papalapit ang araw ng birth of my baby
Siempre! Excited! Sila natatakot…

Ako?? Ok lang, parang wala lang…
Sa totoo lang hindi ako natatakot..
Bakit ako matatakot??
Ayun nga araw na para manganak ako…
Ang sakit kaya ng tyan ko!!ang bigat bigat ng dala kong bola sa tyan!!
Pero kaht ganun kasakit hindi yun dahilan para tumulo luha ko

Hehe may gusto kasi ako patunayan sa mga magulang ko eh….
Haha!! Dahil ayokong magreklamo!! Gusto ko patunayan na kaya ko
Wahahaha!! At hindi ako iiyak!! Pero sa totoo lang ang sakit sakit kaya!!ayun na! asa harap na ako ng higaan…
Kung san kelangan kong humiga…

Kinakabahan dahil hindi ko alam ang sunod na mangyayari..
Tinurukan nila ako ng injection..
Yun yung painless na gamot sinasabi nila…
O e d cge go ako!painless daw eh.. (tsaka kasama s bayad un)
Kasalukuyan na akong asa pnagbabawal na gamot pagkalipas ng ilang minuto
Hehe ang bilis nga eh.. effective kagad..

Kaya pala painless kasi makakatulog ka..
Hindi mo mararamdaman na may niluluwa ka na palang sanggol sa ano mo…
Gayun pa man (nakz!) ang ganda na ng panaginip ko at kung san na ako nakapunta
Aba! Ginising ba naman ako ng mga walang hiyang doctor na yan! (hehe jok lng!)
Ginising kasi nila ako para lang umire…
Kunsabagay… sabi kasi nila pag hindi raw ako umire mahihirapan lumabas ang bata…
Ok fine! O e d ire! Hehe!!

Salamat pagkatapos ko umire ng ilang beses dahil hindi daw ako marunong umire!
Kaya natagalan sa paglabas… nakalabas din ang aking baby sa wakas!
After nun nakatulog ako ulit..
Kinabukasan pagkagising ko..
Waaa!! Pakswet ulit!! Ang sakit kaya!!!
Iniwanan ako ng 3 stitches!!o cge gudluck ha! Hindi ako makatayo
Konting galaw parang mapupunit ang ano ko…

Parang nga ayoko ng tumayo sa kinahihigaan ko
Bawat galaw mo... masakit ang sugat na iniwan
Pero ayos lang naman..
Kasi kahit na iniwanan ka ng sugat…
May kapalit naman…
At masaya ako sa naging kapalit..

Yung 3 stitches ko…
Yun ang nagpapaalala sa akin na masakit ang sugat na naiwan..
Hehe pero isa na lang syang alaala
Alaala na kahit minsan bumabalik yung sakit..
Pero sa bawat balik nun onti-onti nawawala…
Naghihilom.. nakz!! Kaya mefenamic acid na lang hanapin nyo
Kahit paano makakalimutan mo
Hanggang sa tuluyan ng mawala.

2007-08-12T07:54:00.000+03:00

Rug Doll

Isang araw may isang mayamang pamilya
meron isang anak na anak na babae...
namamasyal sila sa isang mall...
habang naglalakad sila..

anak: mami mami ang ganda ng doll oh! bili mo ako nyan!
mami: o sige anak san ba jan ang gusto mo?
anak: ito o gusto ko po ito!
dady: o sige kunin mo na yan mami bayaran mo na sa counter.

at umuwi silang mag-anak
tuwang-tuwa yung bata sa bago nyang laruan..
pagkalipas ng isang buwan..
nagsawa ang bata sa kalalaro ng kanyang doll
hanggang sa hindi na niya ito pinapansin

ang kawawang doll ay nasa tabi na lang..
madalas makikita mo sya sa ilalim ng mga upuan..
minsan asa ilalim ng kama... dinadaan-daanan
dahil sa hindi na nga sya pinapakinabangan

mami: inday tapon mo na nga ito sa basurahan bkt nakakalat pa ito dito!
inday: opo ate!

tinapon na nga sa basurahan ang doll
hanggang sa npunta na ang doll sa isang lugar kung san itinatambak ang
napakaraming basura dito sa pilipinas..

may isang basurerong nag-aayos ng kanilang mga basurang itinapon
nakita nya ang doll naalala nya bday pala ngayon ng kanyang mahal na anak
kaya kinuha nya ito.. pinagpag para magkhang malinis..

tatay: okay na ito pwde na ito sa anak ko may bago na syang laruan ngayon sa bday nya

umuwi ang tatay na dala-dala ang doll.
pagkadting nya sa kanila hinanap nya kagad ang anak nya.

tatay: nay, nasan na anak natin hindi ba birthday nya ngayon? nkapaghanda ka na ba nay?
nanay: oo andun sya sabi ko maligo na sya dahil may inihanda ako para sa bday nya.
tatay: a sige at ako din may surpresa para sa knya.

biglang lumabas ang bata at niyakap ang kanyang ama.

anak: tatay!! andito ka na pala. kmusta po ang maghapon nyo:
tatay: ayos lang anak. may surpresa si nanay at tatay sayo!
anak: wow! ano po yun tay! nay!
tatay: ito o! (sabay nilabas ang doll na nasa likuran)
anak: yehey!! may bago na akong laruan ulit!! wow tatay! ang ganda!! marami pong salamat!!
(sabay yakap sa ama)
tatay: walang anuman iyon anak.. o sige tara ng kumain.. nay halika na dito sabay-sabay na tau.
nanay: cge umupo na kaung dalawang mag-ama jan at maghahain na ako..

tuwang-tuwa yung bata sa regalo ng kanyang tatay sa knya. kahit na alam nyang hindi bago ang laruan at tinapon lang ito ng dating may-ari.. inalagaan nya pa din ito.

ramdam ng rug doll na nabuhay sya ulit kaht na alam nyang tinapon lang sya ng dating nagmamay-ari sa kanya.
nkakita naman sya ng bagong pamilya at naramdaman nya ang pagmamahal ng bata sa kanya.

2007-08-11T14:06:00.000+03:00

Weekends!!

i had a great weekend yesterday!
haha! me and ate jackie together with her bro and sis-in-law went on a beach!
from 4:00 in the morning til 8:00 am i guess..
we bought our breakfast from Dairy Queen...

look at this picture hehe..
i'm still sleepy...
its 4:00 am here in Doha

ayan!! i took a shot while im havin my breakfast...
me and ate cabz were really starving that time!
naka2gutom din kasi ang madaling araw....

at last! finally here!
one shot before swiming!

facin the sea iz lyk am facin mah journey...
ALONE...
and the lights from the sun are my hopes!

wahaha!! tlgang nirelate ko yung pic sa life ko..

2007-08-05T12:34:00.000+03:00

For My EvErDeAreSt BeStFriEnd..

Actually 3 kmi... and the other one is Ate Jackie...
we have this friend named Anne...
i first met anne before ate jackie...
i've known her for almost 3 yrs...
and for those years i want to thank her soooo muccchhh..
coz withour her maybe i'm still all alone..
i learned to be strong when i met her...
i learned to smile and laugh again after the chaos i've faced before in my life...
when i met her... i found a family... i always felt appreciated...
i love her so much.

i dnt know what will happen to me if there is no one like her in my life...
i cant help it..my tears fell down while im doing this blog...
thank you for all the help you've done for me..
even though sometimes we have misunderstandings..
of course we aren't perfect and this is part of the friendship..
take care of yourself, because we want you to see how we aim our dreams for ourselves and most especially...for you..
you're always included in my plans..
me and Cabz want to share our blessings...
and we want to share it with you..
coz we love you my everdearest mahal...
and we're afraid if we lose you... especially me...
love you my mahal. take care and always pray to Him.ok?

2007-08-04T15:00:00.000+03:00

The simpliest life I am in

I could say that I am blessed and I am happy for the blessings I'm currently receiving from Him...why? because of the good things that is happening to my life..i don't want to discuss the whole thing because its too long...ill just give you the highlight of my 3-months-journey here in Qatar:

HEHE! look at me i was doing nothing at mah table..it was yesterday.. emote

To begin with, let's start the Abu Dhabi thingy:

A shot of the plane I rode during my trip to Abu Dhabi under Etihad Airlines...

From Phils. to Doha then Doha to Abu Dhabi.. Ghad, I was so excited during that time. I even took a snap of my boredom at Doha Airport..soundtrip lang yan.then a set of video call from Cabz (one of my bestfriends) kaya ubusan ng load. Hehehe.

This is my hotel room... i stayed in Abu Dhabi for only one night..yeah, I stayed there alone.

That was the lasts of my tour in Abu Dhabi. Now take a look at my life in Doha..

We usually dine out. Cabz and her family often do the treats. Lumolobo ako dito kakakain. Take a look at this photo (a Japanese bento dinner..nakakbusog to.sobra) taken at
Moon Palace Restaurant:

Then we would often go out and do roadtrippin. Before, when Kuya Jeff and Ate Cha was still searching for a 4-wheeled car to purchase, here's what we do:

yeah. We inquire then pupunta kami sa showrooms to see the models. Haayy..watta car!! wish i could buy this car! wahaha!! Anywhoots, this is one of the GMC's latest 2007 4-wheeled car models (hehe! peace ate cha! lab yah!)

With regards to the next pic...

This gimik place is named here as Qube. before it was located inside the Ramada Hotel pero since they're shifting and all, they decided to separate the bar. and eto na un.

Pero if you wanna ask me if which is the better place to have gimik? MALATE at LIBIS p din ang sagot ko!! (wahahaha!)kht malaki ung dancefloor d2 mas masaya p din s atin. woo!! (plus,and i had a bad encounter to this place.. hehe!!details to follow nalang.ahihihihi)

Now that'z mah story for today! hehe! many more places to visit! i don't know when and where!

Basta stay tuned. ;)

2007-08-04T14:51:00.000+03:00

I'm presently reminiscing my blog ever since i started blogging (in Friendster)...and i cant help but to laugh coz i cant imagine myself sayin' those words

...and my past dramas...hehehe..

while im reading my entries, i turn back to where my life was...how colorful my life for the past few yrs...i found new friends, acquaintances, hubby.. and so on,..i experienced having a cup of coffee while thinking what to put on my nxt blog...going somewhere without any plans..meeting new friends...

hays! haha natatawa na lng tlga ako...its so nice to sneak from your past...coz past will help you to be more strong...have chances to avoid those mistakes..letting go is an easy way..

2007-07-26T15:00:00.000+03:00

"Your old issues deserve to be where all old issues belong: in the past. Do not try to hold on to water as it flows under the bridge -- you'll just end up getting all wet (not to mention frustrated). Time moves forward, and you are meant to go along with it! It's true that looking back can give you insight about the mistakes you have made, but you must let a certain amount of time pass by before you can achieve that 20/20 hindsight. It's too soon right now."

As what my horoscope stated... yeah... forget about the issues from the past... some issues wont help you achieve your aspirations in life...

You wouldn't want to hold on into something not worth holding to..

Would you?

2007-06-26T16:16:00.001+03:00

Why do I get so jealous when my partner talks to other people?

my views:

When you first connected with your partner and looked into their eyes,it felt like he or she was the only person in the room.
As you get deeper into your relationship and call yourselves a couple, the realization hits you.
You and your partner are not alone on this planet. There are others! Are they a threat?
When we are in a committed relationship,we assume the connection we have with each other will be strong enough to offend off outside threats.
In some ways, this you-belong-to-me-and-I-belong-to-you mentality is sweet; it's the stuff of pop songs and poetry.
But sometimes the intensity of that connection is too strong.When one partner sees everyone whom his or her partner comes into contact with as a potential threat, it is“a sign that jealousy has taken hold”a sign that jealousy has taken hold.
Shakespeare called it "the green-eyed monster," and once it gets a hold of your relationship, it sinks its teeth in and can rip it apart.

What causes jealousy?

If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you.
That lack of trust may be prompted by one of four factors.*
You may feel insecure about yourself-worth. In these cases, either you've been raised to believe, or some part of your inner self feels, that you just don't measure up.
Because you don't love yourself, you can't believe that others would love you, so you live in fear that your partner's "true" feelings will be revealed and she will leave.*
You're prone to cheating on your partner -- maybe even have done so.
Knowing what you're capable of, you project that behavior onto your partner.*
You and your partner haven't yet figured out how to“establish safe boundaries within the relationship”establish safe boundaries within the relationship.
Having a tight bond is about building walls around your love with windows that allow others to be part of it -- not doors where competing lovers can walk right in and disrupt your home. Because you don't know what's permissible within the relationship and what's not, you're constantly on your toes.*
Your mate is cheating on you.

"Put your focus on building trust”Put your focus on building trust.
If you've got some growing up to do,therapy may help.
Both of you have to learn how to set boundaries in the relationship.
That requires respecting your mate's definition of limits of outside relationships from the start.
Over time, as trust builds, you and your partner can redefine what feels safe for the relationship. After all, when you've got a great relationship, you want to share it with the world."

- Dr. Scott Haltzman

Haayy..Cheating doesn't have to include sex;itoften has to do with making emotional connections to others outside the relationship.If your partner is sharing things about your private life with attractive members of the opposite sex,it robs a sense of intimacy from your relationship and leaves you feeling vulnerable. Knowing the factors that lead to jealousy is an important first step to getting things fixed.

How about you, are you some kind of a jealous? ;p

2007-06-23T09:37:00.000+03:00

FOOT PRINTS ON THE SAND..

i know ure wondering why i stopped txting u, or giving u a msg...
becoz i wanted to have a peace of mind...
im always bothered...
and this is the only way i know on how to make me feel secure about ur feelings for me...
i am leaving this msg for to you have an idea on how to start... well..
that is if... if you really do love me and willing to do anything just to talk to me..
but if you don't.. then maybe i did the right thing...
you can start asking my friends
they will lead me to you... goodluck!

2007-06-23T08:47:00.000+03:00

Life… am always in a complicated situation..
Sometimes I don’t know if I have to give in or not…
I’m lookin for a security….
Security when it comes to love…
I want to be secured coz am damn tired in hoping for nothing…
But how?? I always fell to a wrong person….
I always end up into same situation..
I’m really tired for this kind of relationship…
My mind says no…
But mah heart says yes…
Which of them should I follow??
My mind says no… because of our hindrances???
But what about if he’s d one ive been waiting for so long??
A regrets that I will bring for the rest of my life…
My heart says yes… because I don’t know what will happen if I lost him…
But what if am just blinded… what if he’s not the one??
Or this is just a negativity attacks…
I don’t feel security because ive felt this way before…
I fell inlove then some unexpected things happen..
So we ended up into nothing…
That’s why im scared… ive been into this same situation
I hav someone special…
But were too far from each other
He’s on the other side of the earth..
And im here in Qatar..
I know I hav to trust him..
And if I lov him I should trust him…
but am always bothered!!
I know this is wrong!!
But I don’t know what to do…
Lord pls give me a piece of mind…
Pls give me strength…
Help me to be strong to the hurdles am facin

2007-06-18T09:44:00.000+03:00

"Sori kung ndi n kta n msg s ym ha. kasi nalaman n nmn ni papa eh alam nya ym ko pati password kya alm nya n nag-uusap tau kaya ndi muna kta mineseg. kasi malalaman nya and yung cp ko nasa knya n nmn kaya nag-ipon muna ako ng pambili ng cp ko para mtxt ka... hehehe... kaya ito ngaun may communication n nmn tau"....

hmmm... msg of my friend's bf. sounds complicated right
maybe the father of that guy doesn't like my friend
not because of her character, its because of her background...
the only thing that i could advice to you girl...
Goodluck!! hope you could survive that test of yours...

2007-06-09T09:26:00.000+03:00

Early Bird

Oha! Oha! am too early for today's work...
As I arrived in the office, still, the lights are off...
I remember when i was in the Phil...
I'm always late..Hahahaha..
I always arrive in our office 1 hr after the start of the working hours.. hahaha....

But now look! I usually arrive 45 mins before our office hours...
well like what others say "Qatar will change you"...
but of course not totally all will change...
character?? definitely depends on the person,
It's how he can be easily influenced by others... right??

me?? i also changed...my career has changed..

oopppssss to be continued...
i have to do something work muna. ;)

Ciao!

2007-05-31T15:36:00.000+03:00

WWB (Working While Blogging)

Well this is my 3rd day of work! im at our office! hehe! sneaking (whisper) wat can i say??? hmmm... i think i found the job and workplace that im looking for know why??? coz im starting to like working here at mitsubishi corporation you know what! am very very lucky with my new company... i have a bosses that is so kind! my salary! plus the benefits i can get! see! how lucky am i! am so thankful that i have a friend whose so kind to me! who loves me more than my family does! well... that's the truth... sometimes you can find philia love to your friends instead to your fam... truth hurts... sometimes the love that we longing for so long... we can find it also to our friends... hooo hooo! am starting to be mushy! lets cut this crap! get back to my story! ok! im going to illustrate what we are all doing her in our office our department: Im a secretary of our deputy admin manager i handle accounts and bookings well i hate numbers.. but it seems like they were hunting me.. hehe

My bosses: a jordanian age 50 plus! lets just say his old... my offcemate ms. cathy another secretary told me that this jordanian is so so kind! the only problem with this man is his memory gap! hehe but when im observing my bosses they won't easily get mad... they will just say.. "no its ok, that's fine that's fine" just like that, after that back to work again... see!! uyt of course i dont want to take it for granted i have a conscience to those kind of people....
im just glad am so lucky! hehe! c yah nxt blog!

2007-05-24T08:47:00.000+03:00

My First Week in Qatar

At last! am already here in Qatar!

My first day was very tiring.. Our departure time in the Phil. was 6:30 am.We arrived here in doha airport at around 10:30 am with my friend's father and sister...While we were traveling on our way home, i 'm looking outside the taxi's window to observed the places we've been through.i've seen this place what they called corniche

such a beautiful place to relax on...

if you want to have a peace of mind you can go there...
you will see a very beautiful sea.. it's also nice even at night...
i saw this what they called "orry" (Qatar's national animal). but even doha has a very beautiful places to tour on... still nothing compares in the Phil.

Second day, we went on a steakhouse they called ponderosa. A restau which serve eat all u can! They have many varieties like: diff. kinds of pastas, ice creams, chicken, potatoes, beef, etc...

and then the next day (my third day) i've got an interview at FITCH it is one of the largest company when it comes to designing and then after that day another interview... and so on...

Yesterday we went bar hopping... well disco bars here at doha is very different...
the sounds, their gimik days, etc...

well this was my first week in Doha ..i really missed Phil... but i have to be patient...
may god bless me all along my journey...

2007-05-11T07:23:00.000+03:00

NEW Journey

May 17, 2007, 6:30 AM, is my departure in NAIA from Philippines to Qatar .As soon as i arrive at Qatar that will be the beginning of my Journey Yes!! i have to start my journey alone... far from my friends, my baby, and my family... my life depends unto them.. but this is life... sometimes you have to look for your soul... ALONE. Sometimes you have to learn to be independent for you to reach your dreams. I know I can survive... i already survived the past chaos in my life and im proud to say that im still fighting. Now in this new journey, I'm confident that i can achieve all my dreams... as of now im contented with my baby, friends, and family. I will miss 'em so much! i love you all!! you all complete my life. i dont need mr. right for its not yet time to give love a space... maybe someday...

To my bestpal who helped me to achieve my dreams i really appreciate it!! a lot!! may God bless you and your family. love you friend... thanks.

2007-04-29T19:51:00.000+03:00

i deserve to be happy...

i thought you understand??
i thought your different from the other guys ive met
men are all the same!!
they can say they love you...
but the truth, they cant fight to what they trully feels for you...
they only think about their self and their ego... how pathetic...
you told me that im the negative one... but hey!
if im a negative thinker how did i survived frm my struggles???
i can be a suicider if im a negative thinker... but here i am alive and rocking!
and im tougher than you could imagine!
why?? because i can admit my mistake,
can swallow my pride, and face it!
what about you??? can you do what i can do???
you cant! ur ego eats you!
nobodys perfect! anybody made a mistake!
im not perfect! and ur not perfect too!
so think about it boy!
regrets??
well at least i tried my best to correct my mistake
i tried to make it up to you...
but u dont want me to give a chance...
its not my fault anymore boy!

2007-04-24T12:05:00.000+03:00

Just as I knew that waiting was impossible...He came and I knew that was him...He turned everything from gray to red..he let me realized that all the things in life are meant to be valued and not to be taken granted of..no doubts, queries nor hesitations...everything has its purpose.. despite of our age-aparts, it never quite hit us that this mutual feelings will take us into our convoys of love. We enjoyed the time, the love and the moments we shared together....but just as I thought, fairytales seldom happens..Actually, it never did happened. Fairytales are for those who don't understand the meaning of reality, the authenticity and the journey of life and its sorrow..Quite tough, but for real.

He may not be realizing that these things are for him, still, I keep the words: "my intentions were good."

2007-04-22T15:20:00.000+03:00

I wanna thank you for your love

i love this song from dimsum...
i discovered this from my friend anne.
When i heard this song I'm beginning to like it...
and now i want to bestow this song to someone i really really love...

Read those lyrics i want you to know how thankful i am when i met you, when you came into my life...
my 3 yrs of emptiness was filled by you..(overwhelmed p nga) ..pls dont ever think that i dont love you...
coz i really do love you... you are my beautiful butterfly...
and i want you to see other beautiful things other than me...
i know ive hurt you... look into my eyes and you will see also that it hurts me too... its not easy for me to let you go...
i know what you feel coz i also feel the same way...
maybe this our fate.. we have to take different paths before we could realize if we are meant to be... and for 2 moths of our relationship i want you to know also that being with you, is one of my most happiest moment of my life!! i wont ever forget you!! like what i told to my friends... "once you love a person you will never stop loving him" that's true! i wont stop loving you darwin... if one day you thought i dont love you no more... keep this on your mind... i still love you though it's just kept in one corner of my heart, it's really true.words cant explain how much i love you... and i want you to be happy..

Thank You For Your Love
by Dimsum

*My life was a constant uphill climb
Never got it right
Each one I loved Went through a change of heart
You came and my world turned upside down
You sung a different tune
Can't let go
It keeps playing on my mind

Now there's a reason to wake up each day
A reason to shake my blues away
Now I am whole, a lucky soul
I wanna thank you for your love
Thank you, thank you for your love
Confused, my heart was in a daze
Learned to live with pain
I loved in haste
Then watched it go with waste
You came and brought music to my soul
Inspired me to the very core
You touched me where No one has been before

Now there's a reason to wake up each day
I thank the Lord for sending you my way
Now I am whole, a lucky soul
I wanna thank you for your love
Thank you, thank u 4 ur love
I saw the world in shades of black and gray
Turning blue w/ every passing day
Just when I thought that maybe all was lost
My life took a new turn and it's all because, it's because...
...No looking back, no more pain
No more dark clouds, no more rain ...

See how thankful i am? i love you darwin... no one could ever erase that...

God bless and good luck to your journey..

2007-04-20T17:45:00.000+03:00

Once there was a butterfly in my palm, but i let it flew... Not because I don't like it but because I wanted this butterfly to enjoy life along with the flowers and the bees... keeping it in my palm won't make it the best butterfly it can be, so from a distance i'd be happier watching it fly and play in the garden while the sun is still shining... cause when the rain comes...i know, if it's really for me, it will fly back to me..."

This is what im trying to impy here.. I want you to see and explore other things before you could say those words... Maybe you were just blinded by your love today... we really just dont know... coz the only permanent thing in this world is the word "change"... your still young to realize your love for me... open your eyes...there must be someone out there whose better than me.. but if in time your heart still beats for me maybe were meant to be..

"when someone really loves you, they will never hurt you and if they do, you will see that in their eyes... they are hurting too..."

"when someone you really love hurt you it doesnt mean they really want to hurt you or they dont love you or! they dont care on what you really feel... maybe they have a reasons... try to look them in their eyes...you will the pain they tryin to hide... try to look for the tears that want to fall...tryin to control the hurt... hug them so that you can feel them... "

2007-04-18T16:20:00.000+03:00

I'm weak I thought im strong... but was wrong.

I'm still the old person... whose weak when it comes to love...

just a while ago i kept askin myself... what if he found another girl.. in a week or two??

... god!! it will tear me into pieces!!! thinking his found new love in each others arms.. waaaa!!!! it hurts!!! superb!!

I know that time will come it will happen... but of course, what would you expect? I love him... maybe i just need time to absorb those consequences... im in pain.. im broke.. im empty.. im incomplete.. bsta masakit..

2007-04-17T08:28:00.000+03:00

Haaay.. asan n nga b sya? hehe! hay nku khit ako ndi ko alam.. nakakainip, haha!! hmmm ano kaya itsura nya?lolz excited ako!! haha!! well kapagod maghntay pero ok lngworth nmn ata e! haha!sana nga lang kht ndi perfect basta right nmn lolzbut feeling ko hay parang single forever n ata ako, hehe!weh kasi bsta!! natatakot ako! ahmnpf! bsta bsta!! lolzsiempre nmn nho madaming lalaki ngaun nkala m tunay un pala they just want you because of the word sex!duh!! hay!! hirap maghanap ng matino! hahaha!

2007-04-16T20:48:00.000+03:00

My Tribute

Family: hmmm am going to start to my family!i will miss 'em! even though they don't see how much i care for them.. i love them still... eventhough they dont trust me.. i don't care! i still love them.. they are my family and nobody could erase that!... maybe this time they will realize my worth... i just want them to know that i love them and im doing this for them and not for myself.. kasi kung sarili ko iisipin k... i wont go in qatar... im going to live my life the way i want it.. i wont sacrifice my happiness if im selfish... but because i love them, im very much willing to leave all my happiness just to make them happy... i will miss my mom!! and of course! my one and only baby, dalen--- mahal ko mamimiss ka ni mama!! take care. i'll alwayz pray to God to take care of you so kahit malayo si mama i know He's there guiding you for me... i hope ur love for me wont change.. i love you very much baby.

Friends: yihaaa!!!guyz!!!! am gonna miss you!!! promise!!! haha!! reserve your tears this april 21, 2007 ok!!! that would be my last gimik with you guys!! so please come!! i will miss our inuman!!! yeahboy!! the wasalak! marlon! julius! eugene!! hayuf s inuman!! butas ang bituka kung butas!! ay ito mamimis k!! anne!!!! mahal!!!!!!!!!! i will miss you!!! very very much!!!! thank you for the help!! u r d one who helped me to move on with my past!!! thank you!! wait for me ok!!! i owe you a lot!!! you're so special to me!! i love you mahal!! (ndi ako tibo tae?) mamimis tlga kita girl!! hayz! next on the line! shiny!!! kaw din!! isa k p!! i will also miss you!! ever since ate jaki left me!! haha!!! kaw n ang kaulayaw k!! lalo n s inuman!! i love you too girl!!! hayz!! and you know what girl?? am so proud of you!! coz u changed a lot!! promise!! you are not afraid of what the other people say! bsta masaya k go lng!! well! yo go girl!!thats the spirit!! kaya m yan!! dnt worry!! you deserve to be happy!! someone is out there! waiting for your love! ok!! ingat kayo jan ha!! mamis mis k ang tambay ntn!! haha!! zara!!! mama zara!! mamimiss kita!!! kaw din!! kht minsa k lng sumama thats ok!! bsta ha! lolz dnt forget! haha!! magiging masaya din kayo ni boss m or ni dady m! ok?? i love you!!! guyz!! i lov you all tlga!!!!!! waa mamimiss k kayo!! ayan!! teary eyed nanaman ako!! well for shiny and zarah, congratulations!! welcome to the real world!! o ayan n!! haha!! kaya nyo yan ok? be happy..mag iingat kayo. Uy unga pala berto!! haha mamimis din kita!! nakaw!! pumili k n ng girlalu m ung matino!! ahaha..

For my someone..wala ko masabi.. hahah joke lng.ok serious na...I'm sorry if i hurt you...if you only knew how much i love youits just that this is not the right time for us...but i want you to know that im very thankful that you came into my life. promise. for almost 3 yrs of my emptiness...u opened my heart...you thought me to smile...AGAIN...there was one mistake i made...i didnt trust you 100%...I'm sorry..I'm afraid to cry...that's why i chose to break up with you rather than continue this relationship....the truth was am afraid that one day you will tell me that your falling out of love or you have found another girl...i know im wrong.. yes i am strong but when it comes to love im weak...i have so many reasons... but i want you to discover it as time passes by...coz i know someday you will understand why im doin this or maybe just one day you will message me that thank you because i open up your eyes...but we dnt know maybe someday our path will cross...i just wish you for the best.. ok!!alwayz take cre! you will alwayz on my heart ok?thank you tlga.. sbra.. mwah...

2007-04-06T17:45:00.000+03:00

I have to let go of him...hayz...this is the hardest part wherein you let go of someone you love..waaaaa mushy! wala ng pakealaman!! nalulungkot ako!!! naiiyak ako!i know this is my fault pero we have to do thisndi lng because of me...but because of us...i missed our kulitan... hay sobra!!!i dnt know how to go on without you....i just hope dat you will understand mei love u very dearly..pero parang ok lng ata sau...hayz.i wanna go home.. where my heart belongsi wanna cry!!!i wanna run!!!it breaks my heart into pieces!!!this is too much pain!!!insanity kills me!!a very very sad decision that i have to face...hayz!! too hard to be brave!!God i miss him so much..

did he already read my e-mail?i think he already did..but what's going on?did he even mind to ask me?did he mind to ask me why?can't he just tell me that he's willing to take risk?anyways, what will I expect?none...how sad...I can't even do anything about it...oh gawd, i think im gonna cry...*sigh* I think i don't wanna fall out of love again.enough...huhu... can't take this anymore...I don't wanna get hurt again... it's always like this...but no...It's really hard to conclude that in time he will be happy with someonelse..for sure he'll meet a person whom will make him happy...and with that, ill be happy for him... *jealous*Bad trip. With all these things, it hurts that I don't have the right to let the situation change..Well...that's life.

2007-04-06T16:55:00.000+03:00

I had it all but I let it slip away Nobody to blame… but me… It’s my fault… I find it hard to trust him… I’m afraid to gamble… I just can’t escape the pain I just saw my pain... and now I cry in the middle of the night And now I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty Another lesson I have learned… Don’t be afraid to gamble when it comes to love… Risk everything... even the relationship is clueless… Sacrifices and pain is part in the game of love… Don’t listen to other people say… Follow your heart… but leave something for yourself… If you’re happy then go! Today is important... What if tomorrow never comes??? It maybe too late for you… Enjoy the moment you’re in each others arm… My fairytale has just ended… But if we’ve given a chance to make it real… Maybe… Someday… I have no regrets of loving him… I’m so thankful his one of the beautiful things that happened to me… I just hope he will find somebody that deserves for his love… I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused… I know I’m unfair… I love you… but my love is not enough to make our fairytale real… I wanted you to be happy… Happy but not with me… You know my hang ups in life… And I don’t want you to suffer those hang ups… We just don’t know… time will come for us… And that time everything is right… We could both fight hurdles… It’s just our love takes time… I wanna run to you… I wanna hug you for the last time… I want to kiss you… I missed our tripping … Your sweetness… And now those are just memories to reminisce and treasure I know this is the priced I have to pay… The truth I don’t know how to start a new beginning I don’t know how to stop my soul in believingI take the moment of disaster…

2006-06-21T11:56:00.000+03:00

Bad mood

Am on my way to Makati where our office located at.I felt anger and my tears want to flowAm mad with my mom (auntie)My real mother told me that im always a black sheep and im their headache.Hello!! What did I do!!Its not my fault if I always went home super late!Its part of my job to wait for the data of different countriesAnd then monitor the trend of the currency and analyze!!Fuck!! Ang hirap paliwanagan!!tpos kapag sumagot ka o kaya nmn nagbgay k ng side m kaw p masama!At!! Kapag sumama p ang loob kaw pa ang sisihin kpag nagkasakit!!wow pare!! Heavy!!!Nagpapakahenyo k n nga para nmn matulungan m sila paunti-unti! Still what ure doin is still a big big X!!They don’t understand the nature of my work!I tried to explain my job and the responsibility still they don’t understand!! Plus the fact na they would answer you in a sarcastic way “pasensiya n hanggang elementary lang ang natapos ko kaya mahirap ako paliwanagan”Wow!!! Tlga nmn!!!! What a word!!!!!Shit tlga! Sila na nga iniisip mo feeling pa nila their not important!naman naman!

On my sister naman, were on war, because of this guy named DHOY. Pano b nmn kasi whenever that dhoy send my sister an SMS message, in a snap gising kagad sya!!!O d b! importante!!! Special!! Aba!! Kagabi txt ako ng txt 1 and a half hr ako naghntay s labas ng bahay nmin txt ng txt 5 times!! May missed call pa! ndi sya nagising!!!wow!!! Umaambon p nun infairness!!

And I don’t like Dhoy also, this is not because am bitter from my past relationship,no im not!!! I just want to protect my sister, ok lng nmn sana. E kaso may gf p ung guy!!! Its not right!.Now if my sister thinks that im doing this because for me all men are just like neilWell, the hell I care!!!