a jaunt to my past gives thrive for my voyage to present

I have to let go of him...hayz...this is the hardest part wherein you let go of someone you love..waaaaa mushy! wala ng pakealaman!! nalulungkot ako!!! naiiyak ako!i know this is my fault pero we have to do thisndi lng because of me...but because of us...i missed our kulitan... hay sobra!!!i dnt know how to go on without you....i just hope dat you will understand mei love u very dearly..pero parang ok lng ata sau...hayz.i wanna go home.. where my heart belongsi wanna cry!!!i wanna run!!!it breaks my heart into pieces!!!this is too much pain!!!insanity kills me!!a very very sad decision that i have to face...hayz!! too hard to be brave!!God i miss him so much..

did he already read my e-mail?i think he already did..but what's going on?did he even mind to ask me?did he mind to ask me why?can't he just tell me that he's willing to take risk?anyways, what will I expect?none...how sad...I can't even do anything about it...oh gawd, i think im gonna cry...*sigh* I think i don't wanna fall out of love again.enough...huhu... can't take this anymore...I don't wanna get hurt again... it's always like this...but no...It's really hard to conclude that in time he will be happy with someonelse..for sure he'll meet a person whom will make him happy...and with that, ill be happy for him... *jealous*Bad trip. With all these things, it hurts that I don't have the right to let the situation change..Well...that's life.