a jaunt to my past gives thrive for my voyage to present

I had it all but I let it slip away Nobody to blame… but me… It’s my fault… I find it hard to trust him… I’m afraid to gamble… I just can’t escape the pain I just saw my pain... and now I cry in the middle of the night And now I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty Another lesson I have learned… Don’t be afraid to gamble when it comes to love… Risk everything... even the relationship is clueless… Sacrifices and pain is part in the game of love… Don’t listen to other people say… Follow your heart… but leave something for yourself… If you’re happy then go! Today is important... What if tomorrow never comes??? It maybe too late for you… Enjoy the moment you’re in each others arm… My fairytale has just ended… But if we’ve given a chance to make it real… Maybe… Someday… I have no regrets of loving him… I’m so thankful his one of the beautiful things that happened to me… I just hope he will find somebody that deserves for his love… I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused… I know I’m unfair… I love you… but my love is not enough to make our fairytale real… I wanted you to be happy… Happy but not with me… You know my hang ups in life… And I don’t want you to suffer those hang ups… We just don’t know… time will come for us… And that time everything is right… We could both fight hurdles… It’s just our love takes time… I wanna run to you… I wanna hug you for the last time… I want to kiss you… I missed our tripping … Your sweetness… And now those are just memories to reminisce and treasure I know this is the priced I have to pay… The truth I don’t know how to start a new beginning I don’t know how to stop my soul in believingI take the moment of disaster…